Ouch!!

So, in my attempt to become as healthy as I can be. I have lost almost 20lbs is like a month. I have been very aware of what I have been eating, I am exercising 3-4 days out of the week. If my schedule permits me. So, my friend wanted me to attend one of her Cage Fitness class, that is a full cardio work out in 30 mins. But it is a mixture of martial arts, self defense, and tae boe. It is extreme and not for the weak hearted. So, being that I cycle like 4-5 miles every day I thought to myself sure Ill do it. After the first 20 seconds I wanted to kill my friend and I just wanted to die. I did not die but my legs felt like jelly. After the class was over I was feeling ok just very tired and still felt like jelly. The next day it was like my muscles said "Im done" they tightened up and my knees locked and could not walk, bend, move or sitdown. It was the worse pain I have ever felt in my life. Just put it this way after giving birth 2 times without medication I would have rather done that 5 times than go thru that pain again. But needless to say I had to endure the pain all day. I cried like a baby, my whole family found it funny and had a good laugh about my pain. (I probably would have laughed at them with some off the stuff I was doing looked pretty dag funny). But today I feel better, still sore and bruised. But I guess I love torture bc I am going again Saturday. :)

Motherhood

So for all my classmates and friends who are stay at home parents or who are single parents I really feel that you would like this movie called Motherhood. Motherhood is about a mom played by Uma Thermand who has two children an husband with a career but she feels that she is lacking something. When I saw this movie I could relate to her position with the views of being a mother. It really made me think about my situation how I felt before Kaplan University. I am a mother of two who decided not to work due to lack of childcare and my sons condition. So with that agreement my husband took on two jobs until he was able to stick with one that was financially better for us. The problem with this is that I put myself aside to give my family all... which I am not saying I would change. Its just sometime stay at home parents forget who we are as a person. I was craving to understand who "Kathy" is or was. So sitting in line at the Social Security office while being talked to like I was someone just living off my son's disability check; put it all in perceptive to me. The only person who could change me was me! I cried in the cry for a good hour because I had never been spoke to like I was worthless and that's exactly how I felt. Please dont think it was because I was stuck at home with the kids or my husband never gives me any attention. That was not the case I just felt like I was no one just a mom thats all. That was my title mom. Not that mom was being bad it was the idea of a unhappy women who never put herself first. If you can understand what Im trying to say. so I remember on of old buisness partner who's wife is or was a math professor for kaplan as a part time job while her husband traveled around in business trips she would go where he was but still teach. So I applied online to Kaplan University and was excepted a week later. I told no one because I didn't want the comments of are you sure you could handle this.... So when I started it was hard at first untill I figured out a schedule that works for me. After the first term was over and was offered honors classes (that I did not take) due to fact that I all ready had my hands full I did not want to put to much on my plate. I felt great! I feel like im a super multitasking mom who can do anything.... My point is If momma isnt happy the house is not happy. So just put yourself first once a week 2x a month go get a manicure, pedicure, go get your done or even if its volunteering at the hospital. Just take the time to make you happy.

Cruise

Well, I am happy to announce that the cruise is back on! We schedualed it for april and it just so happens that if fall when we have a break for school. So I am super excited about it. I am glad that his boss did not tell him no again. Because I really think that would have set me over the edge. My blog this week is short but sweet. The other news is I am planning on taking the boys to a gymnastics class, I am a little worried with that tho because I don't know how the children are going to react to William and his special mentality. But I think it will prepare both of us for kindergarten.

Brain Dead

Hello again my blog today is short but to the point; Once again this week mental release is called brain dead. The reason why I chose this topic is because it is exactly how I feel when ever I finish a conversation with someone who does not seem to get the point or the idea across. I know everyone has felt that once in a while. It happens when you have a argument with your love one, husband, sister and even parents. Well, I had a conversation like this last night it left me emotionally exhausted and just brain dead. Just numb to everything I could not think anymore all I could feel is the nerves in my left eye being pinch by the pressure in my head. I want to say the discussion was not a family member or my hubby. It was someone who is supposed to help me learn so I can successfully pass my classes. But, some time people are black and white and there is nothing I can do about it. I guess I have to roll with the punches and just take a couple of Advil migraines before dealing with this person again.